okay so here is the update, the job that josh was not going to be able to apply for, well now he is and he turned it all in today, i am really so proud of him. last night i stayed up while he got ready for work and kinda asked him questions that they would ask him to help prepare him for the interview. it was really interesting to hear his responses. for example what is his best quality, he said it is his integrity ( i thought that was so cute and completely true, he is the most honest person i have ever met.) if he has lied about something it eats him up inside until he has to tell the truth. so he has learned not to lie. ( good quality i think) i asked why he wanted the position, he said that for his future goals of either becoming a chief master sergeant in 10 years, or an officer ( military chaplain to be specific) this change in his career would help him to get the leadership skills that he would definitely need. also i don't know if you know but he has enrolled in a school it is online which is awesome, and he is pursuing his masters in theology, although completing it is definitely a few years away, i am so proud that he starting something that he has such a passion for. tomorrow i am supposed to hear about the dance contracts with the base, hopefully they will be ready for me to sign ( cross your fingers) everything down here just moves so slowly it is ridiculous! i am trying not to get frustrated though, because i know that everything happens for a reason and i just have to know that my life is in gods hands and everything will work out. i posted a few more pics, one is of josh and i at the Atlanta zoo, it was taken in aug of 06 but i know you guys prob have not seen it so i thought i would put it up.. same with the others, not really new pics to me.....but new to those of you who have not seen them :) enjoy
ps love ya dad just thinking about ya

sick

well thursday was valentines day and we did not do anything special, because josh is working the night shift and we were just planning on celebrating on saturday. well saturday josh and i got into a fight, really our first big fight since we have been married, it was about something really stupid but we both decided to not let it go. we decided to go on with our plans, we went to an early movie "fools gold" it was a cute romantic comedy, and then went home to get ready for dinner. here in valdosta there really are not a lot of nice places to eat unless you consider chain steak houses fine dining. so anyways we got dressed up, him in dress pants, collared shirt and tie, and me in a very expensive black dress that i bought 2 years ago but never got the chance to wear. well we went to a place called the bistro. it is in the historic district of valdosta, really cute, small portions and big price tags. you know the places. well the food was okay, the service was so so considering they were packed, but all in all it was a very exhausting day. being mad at each other takes so much effort, and the fact that at work i caught something that resembles bronchitis, needless to say it is sunday and i am exhausted. on a brighter note josh and i talked everything out and we are once again happily married.

bring on the money

Okay so here in Georgia they have a little thing I like to call.....the mega million dollar lottery. as of today it is up to 150 million dollars. to some that might not seem like a lot ( whoever you are who thinks that you are CRAZY!!!) so of course i had to buy some tickets....someone has to win and i think it should be me! i bought ten tickets and even though i probably had the same odds buying one or none. but i can dream right?!?!? of course i started thinking what i would do if i won. pay off the house go shopping go on amazing vacations. then the less obvious stuff. again if you don't know me very well you might not know that i am a pretty giving person ( believe me i am not trying to toot my own horn, i just always get so much enjoyment out of giving things to people) anyways here is what i would do if i won. of course all of this would depend on how much but lets just say i won it all......here it goes

pay off my sisters and parents houses
get everyone out of debt
set up a fund for all my nieces and nephews for college and private schools if wanted
take my family on the best vacations possible
my mom would stop working !!!!!
build my mom a house with room for all her horses so she could focus on the things she loves most in life ( besides her kids of course)
buy my dad a house wherever he wanted to live and the dream car to go with it
layne he gets his porche 911
cory gets a gallery for his photography and a skatepark in the backyard :)
take my mom and sisters and grandma on a spa weekend including shopping at all the stores we never could afford otherwise
amber gets a all access pass to the kate spade store
and anything else i could possibly dream of for my family that would make them happy

josh and i would travel....he said he would still stay in the military though... :( he says he could never not work....i am all about early retirement. we would invest of course, but we would buy a house in utah so that i could be with my family whenever i wanted....and i guess i would have to have a plane or at least fly first class ( i never have before.....one day) i would donate to lots of charity...especially alzheimers research :)....my mom has to be able to remember her life after she was really able to enjoy it and not stress.

well that is my wish list not too much to ask for ....right? i would hope i would be the same person as i am now, same big heart, just have the money to be able to take care of the people i love the most.

First day posting

As I am sitting here trying to think of what to say...( my first blog should be meaningful or have some insight...right?) My mind is blank and all I can think about is how sad I am. Earlier this month Josh (my husband) was given the opportunity to apply for a job to be an instructor. To most this would not seem like something to be excited about, but to us it was an answer to our prayers. We have been hoping for this job to become available because it would mean he would be here for 4 years straight. No deployments no going away for short or long periods of time. After all the time we have spent apart so far in our relationship it seemed like something good was going to happen so we could actually spend another anniversary together or Christmas. Even start a family. I think that is why I am wanting him to get this position so badly is because I do want to have children, but I don't want to do it by myself. I mean there are the mothers who say they raised a child all alone, but for me its not about the raising of the child, it is about josh being there to watch my belly grow, and to be in the delivery room, and to be able to hold his child. Not for him to have to see his child for the first time through a picture or via web cam. I know I chose this life and am so grateful for what i have and for my amazing husband. But the reality of having to go through these things alone scares me to death. To those of you who complain that your husband isn't around enough, because he works to much or is in school or whatever. just be thankful that his work or school would not make him miss your childs birth or something that important. Mine would. Anyways back to the job thing. He found out today that they might not let him apply for it because the job he is in now is under staffed. Nothing is official but i just got my hopes up so much, and now I am having to think of the fact that he is probably leaving for another tour to the desert, and this time I don't have my family and friends around me for support. I know this sounds like i am just complaining about my life. but in my future blogs i will try to be upbeat. at least if its an upbeat day :)